Monday, October 29, 2012

I wonder

if at some point people will donate their illustrious parents' e-mails... (This made me think of it)

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Thoughts

Well, it has been a while since my last post, and a lot has happened in the past few weeks.  I am back with a little bits about everything that has transpired.

As far as Paleo goes, it was a pretty good success. I managed to stick to it the entire 4 weeks in terms of food, however, I drank apple cider and wine on several occasions.  I cooked a lot and enjoyed pretty much everything I made but for a couple of exceptions.  

On August 31, I flew to Moscow, Russia where I stayed for 2 weeks.  The trip was very relaxing in that I chose to see only very few people, not to stress myself with obligations, and generally go with the flow.  I stayed with my sister and her husband, and this arrangement provided for many conversations late into the night accompanied by good food and wine.  There are several things worth noting that took place during my trip:

- the day after my arrival I went through a pretty intense therapy experience, where a piece of my human psyche puzzle was uncovered.  It was cathartic. 

- two days into my visit, I fell ill with a horrid virus that took me out of commission for a day.  Frankly, I don't remember being this sick in the last 10 years, so I attributed it to the after effects of therapy.

- many many soul searching talks with my sister.  They tired me out emotionally and mentally but I have grown because of them.

- a wonderful lunch with my old friend, with whom I don't stay in close enough touch. Last time we had seen each other was 5 years ago when she was in LA flying back to Moscow from Hawaii.  It felt as if these 13 years of us living apart have never happened. It was magic. 

- Bulka's condition rapidly deteriorated and I flew back in a hurry and worry over her health.  Turned out that the medication for pain was giving her bad side effects, she has been seen by a specialist, and we will be starting stem cell therapy for her in the nearest future.

It was good to be back, however, it took me at least two weeks to readjust to the time zone.  

I have been mostly lazy, enjoying a busy social calendar and ignoring so many home chores... Kind of embarrassing.

The last thought will sound cryptic but I am not at liberty to speak openly here.  Events have transpired that forced me to think harder than ever about causality.  Something that was to me the source of new and inspiration for quite some time became detrimental to someone else.  This has pushed me to a rather grim extreme, where I decided to avoid any possibility of ambiguity.  Such decision is limiting, and I have the worst time with limitations.  Time to grow up?